Another thing is a lot of blogs (I'm not talking about just people I follow or who follow me) have been so whiny lately. I get it's rough, I do, but there is NO point in whining about it. It won't change anything. I guess I feel that I chose this life and while yes, I'll vent, I think it gets a little much sometimes. I CHOSE to deal with long hours. I CHOSE to deal with crappy pay. I CHOSE to deal with being put behind the military. I CHOSE to be here for months on end by myself while my husband deploys. It's simple. It's the life I CHOSE. No one forced me to do it.
Now this is where I might tick some people off.
I know a lot of wives move back home while their husband deploy, but I don't get why. At all. It goes back to I chose this life. I knew I'd be left at home while Eric went to off to war. I get asked all the time if I'm going back home and my response is always "Hell no". This is my life now. This is my home. I'm married. I'm an adult. I get to live this life. I couldn't imagine moving back home. Even if I didn't have work or school I would still be waiting here, in our home, for my husband. Maybe I'm the unpopular opinion about this, but this is something I feel strongly about.
Lately I've realized I need to re-evaluate my friends. I feel like I offer and give so much and get nothing in return. I feel people aren't grateful at all. I understand sometimes things don't work out, but just to know they would be appreciative of what I would do for them would be nice. I would do so much for any of my friends and I'm realizing if the situation was reversed it wouldn't be the same. I think I'm so willing to go out of my way for people that it's too much.
I know with this post I might lose some followers, but I'm okay with that. This place is for me to express my opinions and views. I hope I didn't offend anyone too bad though.
I try my absolute hardest to keep our shiznit wrapped up pretty tight. No one really knows about the "real" stuff we have going on. When I feel like I'm going to burst, I just don't blog. Ha ha its that easy for me. I don't want people to read my stuff and think how ridiculous I am or to come across super whiny so I just don't air it. Why? I don't know most of the people that read my stuff, I don't need them knowing all our details.
ReplyDeleteNow for me, I have been fighting tooth and nail against moving back home. Cody is all for it for the main reason of this whole case may go to trial anyways and he doesn't want me here alone to deal with it all. I'm also helping out my sisters family who lost their source of income and paying them rent. It'll suck having to come back here and get settled again but it gives Cody peace of mind and will help him worry and stress less. Now if I had a job here, I wouldn't be leaving. But without a job, friends, kids, school... there is nothing for me here.
Yea, I'm the same way. Normally if I feel like I'm going to spill I'll write it out and then exit out of it.
ReplyDeleteEveryone has their own reasons :)